By the way ...

... I seem to carry over a few valuable tidbits from one exam to the next. That's why I know that I'll pass this thing sooner or later. And I do believe it's going to be sooner rather than later. And when I finally do pass I plan to post an evaluation here of each and every one of the bar prep resources I've used, from books to seminars to tutors. I've taken something positive from everyone I've gone to for help, except for one, and I'll not talk about that one, and I don't think I've mentioned that one yet so you can't start guessing who (oops, did I say who?) that was. (;-)>

Anywho ... I bring forward the essence of each tutor from one exam to the next, and my bookshelf holds a little bit of each of them; a one-sheet here, a supplement there, a cluster here, a checklist there. But, frankly, (and don't call me Frankly (or was that Shirley?)), at this point, I don't know if that's a curse or a blessing - for them or for me. Regardless, each of them has taught me something that I wasn't taught at my school. Or, more likely, it was taught but I was too preoccupied with personal BS to notice it when it came across my desk.

Anywhen ... this time, I'm reaching out for feedback in a way that I wouldn't have had the courage to before. There's something about failing repeatedly that makes us (well, me, anyway), acutely aware (and whatever comes after acutely (Mega-Acutely?)) of the fact that I've been seriously screwing this thing up and that I'm going to continue to do so until get equally serious about passing.

Anywhat ... one of the reasons I haven't been more chatty this time is that I'm tired of damning with faint praise (very faint) those who have helped me before. I've decided not to subject these new good people (yet) to whatever little extra scrutiny they may receive as a result of my having written about them here until I actually pass the damn exam. That way I don't have to go to bed at night feeling even more guilty about even more good people I've demeaned by linking their good names to my heretofore miserable one.

Anyhow ... as I was saying, one of the most useful things I've picked up along the way is the PowerDreams audio stuff. Right about now in this process I start having trouble relaxing during the day and going to sleep at night, and their ... stuff, for lack of a better word, is great for that. I've only unequivocally recommended a couple of programs here - Steven Emanuel's MBE program and Dava and Martina's PowerDreams audio ... stuff. Everything else comes with caveats - good for some people, not good for others. But these two programs are worth every penny they charge, and them some.

And ... I've already done what I said I wouldn't do - spend more time here. But, it's only this once, and no one can complain unless I do it again soon. And I won't be doing that. Soon. Or something. It's after midnight now, and I'm tired.

G'night Gracie.